Where is the undo button?

Has anyone found it yet? You know, that little button you just drag your mouse on top of in Microsoft Excel and Word and "undo" the last mistake you made. If only life were that simple!

I just had one of those days where I wish I could have gone back and started all over again. It wasn't a terrible day because I really did get a lot accomplished (except for the important things, such as spending quality time with my daughter), but I look back now and realize what an awful mommy I was during the morning today.

My patience was running too thin today, and I took it out on my sweet daughter. We had plans to get Annabelle's hair cut this morning (before our appointment to sign our wills), but hubby called around 9:30 a.m., and he said he had gotten some work to do at the office that he needed to finish up before he came.

Since his workload has been very sparse lately, I completely understand, appreciate and accept all new work for him. Lack of work for him makes me very, very nervous with the current economic state of our country. And, believe me, I am typically not a pessimist regarding the economy. It is just that these rising prices (gas and food) really have an impact on the monthly bottom line when you only have one income to draw from. I guess technically we have a little bit more than one income since I do work a little, but you get the point! Rising prices on the necessities makes less discretionary income available.

So anyhow, I became upset over the situation because he thought he'd still be able to make it, but he still wasn't sure (until around 10:09 a.m.). But, by then, I felt it was too late for me to get Annabelle and myself in the car to make it to Pigtails and Crew Cuts before 10:30 a.m. (at the very latest). I had originally told him that I hoped to be there by 10:15 a.m. We had an appointment to sign our wills at 12:00 p.m., so I wanted to make sure that we had time to wait on a hair dresser (if there was a wait) and then the actual time to get Annabelle's hair cut and then the additional time to drive to my office to meet the attorney to sign our wills.

I didn't want to feel rushed at all, so by the time 10:09 a.m. rolled around, I was a nervous wreck!

I know, I know, you are probably thinking, "seriously?" Should I also mention that I woke up with a stomach ache (and, no, I am NOT pregnant) from the nerves alone. I am so nervous about getting Annabelle's hair cut for some reason.

In all honesty, it makes me very sad. It is just one more step to letting go of my baby. Annabelle was born with a full head of hair, and I have always adored her hair. It is just beautiful, so I can barely stand the thought to get it all cut off. Although I am sure I will probably wonder why I had not cut it sooner once I do get it chopped off.

So, by 10:09 a.m., I was pretty upset that my plans had been changed after I had grown accustomed to the idea that I was going to get Annabelle's hair cut today.

And how did I react? I took it out on sweet Annabelle. Everything she did just seemed to drive me crazy! And, she really wasn't doing anything harmful. Well, except that she almost pulled my camera off the buffet in the dining room because she was trying to get the camera to bring to me so we could go outside and take her "pic-tur." We had just come in from outside from taking pictures of her very long hair to document the length before her very first haircut. She just reached for the camera and said, "pic-tur, pic-tur, pic-tur." Do you think I am a little obsessed with pictures? My own 21 month old (tomorrow) knows that I needed the camera in hand if we were going to be outside.

And, I got upset with the poor child for not sitting still in the house for her photo shoot of her beautiful long hair. I mean, seriously, what did I expect? I know better!

So, God, please forgive me for raising my voice with my sweet and beautiful daughter. Please grant me the patience tomorrow and everyday so that I can truly enjoy these special moments instead of becoming irritated at the silliest things.

The innocence of a child is truly amazing! I'm not sure that she sensed my frustration earlier today, but I am sure she did. But, all the same, she forgave me in no time at all. I just wish I could forgive so quickly!

This evening while I was "busy" washing dishes, Annabelle walked into the kitchen with me, reached her arms up and said, "Mm Mm Mm." We basically make that sound whenever we give her hugs, and ever since she really learned to hug us back, she has done the same. It is precious!

Well, I was so caught up in everything that had to be done that I didn't realize what she was trying to do. Hubby yelled from the living room, "She is trying to give you something. Pick her up." I immediately realized what she was trying to "give me," so I picked her up, and she gave me the best hug ever! Is that not the sweetest thing? I asked her, "Did your Daddy put you up to this?" She said, "Mmmhmm" as she walked away.

Now, that is a simple joy I would have most definitely missed because I was so "busy" washing dishes if hubby had not pointed out to me that Annabelle was trying to give me something.